where am i?

Where are you? Text msg frm Jas. Does he even bother where am I or what I'm doin? I'm not working for now,I'm so bored n have nothing to do at home,but he rather spend time with his best friend that once upon a time he had feelings for her. Going out with her to do her's kids school stuffs..and the thing with him is,he just gets exited whenever it comes to her. Well,I have best frens with feelings attached too,but I juz don't get so over excited...its understanable that you only have feelings for one person and special momments with only one person. I just hate to bring this up to him.I just don't wana argue with him. Now he don't let me to tell anyone how I feel,oh well...fine,so I blog to express my feelings. He could just spend time with me since lastnite was wasted.he always limit his time with me,I don't know why. I feel very hurt most of the time and today I start to ask myself,am I happy being with him? Why am I doin so much for him when he never even cares or have a thought. I am even willing to sacrifice going to see him just for 30minutes later before he goes up to the bus and head of to Ipoh. He spend the whole day with his best friend wit somesort of feelings and juz 30minutes with me...and I'm so stupid willingly to come all the way just to see him before he go. I just felt stupid and I think its time to wake up. He talks so selfishly..he talks about marriage,but making me to wait for years to come. Why even he brings up that topic? I just wake up and realise that I have been such a fool in love. How love blinds me up. Its just so sad....and I'm hurt,yes I am,and I just want to be by myself for now..don't ask where am I...pls don't.

the best momments with my best friends

To do something that you don't have to plan and just do it is so fun. Decide something n just pack your bags and just go....no questions ask. From Ipoh then to Penang and to Langkawi and then bck To Penang and Ipoh. Its so fun and thrilling. But the its fun being with my closest frens and they have been so understanding. I love you all. Tomorrow is another crazy day,haha...

love is a decision not a feeling

And that is what Godma told me. Its a decision that you will have to make it right and with no regrets. Feelings are more into the lust category and feelings will come and go,apparently we will get bored over it. I don't say it out much in verbal but I love to jot it down.

relationship and compromise

I'm in love with someone that is totally in diffrent cultural and lifestyle. Its funny how we both can click together and ended up loving each other so much. But to all this,there is always some sacrifice to be made.

Relationships,no matter how good are inevitably a series of compromises. But how much of ourselves should we be willing to sacrifice for the other person? In a relationship,when dos the art of compromise become compromising?

The Word Of The Lord

Psalm 27:4
One thing I ask of the Lord; this is what I seek:  that I may dwell in the house of the Lord all the days of my life, to gaze upon the beauty of the Lord and to seek Him in His temple.

i wanna know what LOVE is

I gotta take a little time
A little time to think things over
I better read between the lines
In case I need it when Im colder

In my life there's been heartache and pain
I don't know if I can face it again
Cant stop now, Ive traveled so far
To change this lonely life

I wanna know what love is.....
I want you to show me......
I wanna feel what love is.....
I know you can show me......

I'm gonna take a little time
A little time to look around me....
Ive got nowhere left to hide
It looks like love has finally found me....

In my life! there's been heartache and pain
I don't know if I can face it again
I cant stop now, Ive traveled so far
To change this lonely life!.!.!.!.

I wanna know what love is.....
I want you to show me......
I wanna feel what love is......
I know you can show me......

Its getin hot in here....

I'm wearing a spegeti dress n yet I'm still feeling so hot n sweating. This place in Titiwangsa is so humid..and I just can't wait for Erin to finish.
So today will be my date with Jas,but,I'm actually having my vocal classes ltr at 7pm and I hv to go collect my medicines from Ravi in Subang. I think I will bring Jaswinder along,so I can eat there. My teeth n gum still hurt,so I have go for chinese ltr. I'm not quite a fan of chinese  food..but I hv no choice.
Owhh...I'm so sleepy here,and hot and hungry...and extremely bored.